My Life and The Color Wheel - 5 Years Ago (A Timehopping Post)

So I said a few weeks backs, I'll be re-sharing my old notes from my Facebook account with you guys. It's a rainy Saturday evening around these parts and I felt like walking down memory lane today.

I keep saying, Life is meant to be colorful. And what better way to describe it than comparing it to the color wheel? I wrote this piece 5 years ago, on my 27th birthday and I must say, my life has become more colorful ever since I became a mother. 

Read on guys and tell me, at this point in your life, what color will best describe where you are?

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In Living Color (",)

I haven't written anything in a while. Everyday pressure of meeting goals at work and reconnecting with friends kissed blogging goodbye for a bit. (",)

So, it's my birthday. I'm a year older and I guess, being caught between the struggle of trying to be mature and resolving to stay as young at heart as I can made me sit down and do one of those reflection stuff I do soo love. What better way to do it than using the conventional oc-oc way - use colored paper markers to make them easier to remember?

WHITE - purity, new beginnings and peace - spells white. And yes, I am at peace, enjoying my new beginning, being able to do what I want and looking forward everyday to where my story should lead.

GREEN - goes both ways for me - could be envy or calmness, nature, trees, mountaintops, the earth. Yes, I do envy those who have found what I haven't found yet, that elusive happiness I can't seem to reach. The career I really want, the car that I wanna drive, the house, the whole nine-yards. (not that these would make me ultimately happy.)
But nah, green for me is fortitude. To put my life in order first and being sure that everything will fall into place eventually. Patience is my new best friend. What I had to learn, the art I had to master since I had to overcome my lack of focus. Especially, since I realized - my memory and focus is that of a 5-year old kid =P

BLUE - aah, the color of the ocean, serenity, cloudless sky, snorkling, frolicking at the beach, summer. As opposed to it's other significance - downcast, sad or lonely. (well,mostly in songs.hehe) Right now, blue represents my discovery that yes, I CAN RUN AWAY FROM PROBLEMS. That I don't have to mull over them and give myself migraine for every time I try to fix what could have been avoided.
It's the equanimity inside of me brought about by the acceptance that I don't have to have a 5-year plan, that since I have thrown the rule book out the window a long time ago, I can just make me new rules, that I am NOT PERFECT, that I am getting old numerically every year, that I don't need to be what others expect me to be, that everyday makes me either special or unspecial to others and that there are THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE.

PURPLE - ooh, one of my favorites! The color of junior proms, weddings & ironically, the color of bruise. (toinks!) Right now, purple represents being reminded of the 1st guy to break my heart, the 1st kiss and the relationships that didn't work out. The missing 50% and the hope that there is still someone for me. My belief in girlish dreams. "If you dream, go for the stars, if you fall - you fall on the moon."

PINK - the ultimate girly color. They say, a girl can never have too much pink. I disagree. To me, pink was a phase. A point in my life where I had to prove that I can appreciate girly things too. hihi. Memories of slumber parties with friends, the color of the perfect lip gloss or blush. Now, pink is a pick-me-up during a "feeling fat day" or a bad hair day.
Pink to me has become the recollection that I may have outgrown childish things but I will always be that sixteen-year old girl who's still trying to find my place in the world.

RED - fiery red. They say it's the color of love, anger, or if you wanna cause a scene like riding a red hot ducati wearing a red bikini kinda scene. (",) I used to think of red that way too. At some point, red was the color of falling in love, of courtship and of chocolate boxes with a bunch of roses. The color of dusk.
Now, it's different, red has become the color of confidence. The courage to stand up for my beliefs. The tenacity to fight for what I want. Admitting my mistakes and having the humility to rectify what I've caused. It's the color of the end to having to prove myself at every turn.

YELLOW - sunshine. Nothing else. Always have and always will represent that to me. I have grown enough to let go of all the b.s in my life. I am more on keeping friends than collecting enemies. Of letting go of negativities. Of accepting people for who they are. On holding back on making judgments by first impressions. Of respecting individuality and of course, learning the art of politics. (",)

Now this might sound weird but last but not the least, BLACK - the color of the night is now the color of LOVE for me. Not that I have turned into the wicked witch of Makati city. But black brings in mind - endless summer nights, dinner dates, bonfires, meaningful conversations, midnight embraces, goodnight kisses after a date, a goodnight's sleep, dreams of anything I want. Black now represents that surfaces doesn't prove anything until you dig deeper. That it's not my fault if they weren't the man for me, that yes, I want someone who will ask me if I'm happy, not my fault if that job wasn't what I was meant to do but that I have the power to write my life's story.

Today, is the 27th year of my life and I have reflected again for the nth time. I have seen through the color wheel that the life I thought was devoid of adventure, lacking in all the right ingredients to make it worth telling is exactly where it should be. I have realized that I have a long way to go. Im still young. But I definitely am not rushing - I don't wanna miss the fun of the roller-coaster ride that is called my life. And for every adventure and misadventure - MY LIFE IS A MOVING PICTURE - HAPPENING - IN LIVING COLOR. (",)

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By some surprising twist of fate, I am now a mom...a single one at that! I'd like to think that God has granted my most fervent wish - to become a superhero! At least in the eyes of my one year old boy - Alejandro. I'm a public servant experiencing fulfillment from doing the best I can to change the world in my own little way. A newbie blogger mom/digital mom and so far, I'm having difficulty switching from being the single, career woman I'm used to in the past and the new role I'm dealt with today. I'm an online entrepreneur too - I don't know where I'm going but then again, I already know where I'm from. And I don't ever wanna go back, Join me, in my missteps and misadventures and tell me what you think about my take on LIFE, LOVE and EVERYTHING ELSE IN BETWEEN. Welcome to Mama Whale's world!


  1. This is very poetic of you. I never thought of colors to be so meaningful and reading your post makes me now think of my own living colors.

  2. Pink, blue and purple 3 of my fave colors!


  3. Happy Birthday! Oh I think I am so Yellow :D

  4. Purple forever! Unique post you got here, bihira na mga ganitong entries. :)

  5. Happy birthday sis! I love white - new beginnings. We are always given a chance to move on with our everyday life.. =)

  6. I have always loved black and yellow. hihi. happy birthday! :)

  7. Belated happy Birthday to you. I love Purple.

  8. I love the post and the colour association. I think of myself as a person with a yellow disposition - aside from literally having yellow skin!

  9. Ako, PINK forever! Since dalaga hanggang naging nanay, pink parin ang favorite color ko. :)